I have been contemplating how I play this personal no win game of seeking physical discomfort, while also trying really damn hard to avoid it.
For example, I notice I am rarely hungry. Occasionally I am hungry, but it is usually only after a long day of not eating and some physical activity. I am typically not far from having a few bites or a drink of something. In terms of running performance,there is probably a measurable impact in that I am a bit heavier than I ought to be for optimal racing.
Hunger is a pretty basic discomfort. I am never in a position where I am seriously food deprived even if hungry. But well before I get to that, I am shoving something in my mouth. I’d run better if I embraced the discomfort of hunger a bit more. But I don’t.
Even though “I did a workout” yesterday, I am not sore today. Or even hugely tired or fatigued. I can feel the work a bit on the edges but nothing significant. There are the occasional days where I am tired or a bit sore, but that is a bit atypical. I tend to be tired if my sleep is jacked or if I have travelled a lot or if I am stressed about something. Recent running soreness or fatigue seems to come off of longer hard efforts or maybe a mountain run. But not track workouts like yesterday. And that is a bit weird because those used to wreck me.
So I am wondering if I am just avoiding discomfort, or going through motions to get a bit of it, but just enough. Not too much so that I have to really deal with it.
I see how as people age, they tend to move towards a comfortable existence, even to the point of putting a lot of energy in fighting change in society because it might shift some fabric in their lives that impacts, or even appears to impact their comfort / discomfort level. Is my aging driving a move away from a willingness to do uncomfortable things, including eat less than I do or train harder?
I have wondered if it is maybe not an age thing but rather a how much you want to take it on thing and that capacity might be some finite well for each of us. We have heard of people “burning out” after short stellar bursts of discomfort and thus results, but yet others carrying on and on and on as if they can do nothing else. Most I know that have pursued running over decades are content to quietly slip from regular competition and the grinding of teeth found in hard workouts. It could be a simple “been there and done that” thing, or that folks grow weary of only getting so far and seeing the limit of their results (and choose to spend their time elsewhere more wisely) … or maybe it is those ideas that come to mind as the brain looks to preserve itself. So some flavor of the central governor perhaps.
The capacity for such taking on such discomfort might be an attribute in each of us that varies like height, but maybe it changes over life as well. I can “see” in high school kids, the highly talented kid that is less willing “to put their hand into the fire” and the kid that might be a bit less talented but hates the taste of losing so much that maybe they outperform others of equal ability. Obviously this is not a black and white consideration or some measurable attribute but it is something that is observable enough that people speak to it as if it is a quantifiable object.
seeking comfort ain’t just a human thing …
