Decided to pass on any T-day racing this AM, and instead joined JV for a jaunt on Green. My 49th, his 155th. This was my first time on the hill since August (before Pikes) and since the floods of September. I brought the camera to get some shots of the new terrain. The shots sort of don’t mean anything if you did not know what was there before. In some cases there was just a hillside that you saw every day, filled with trees. Now it is a gorge, void of anything but very large rocks.





Jeff was kind to me, keeping most of the effort at a hike or a very slow jog. As my back is still tight up high, I was thankful for the slower pace. Even though I have not run with Jeff in over 3 months, we fell into conversation like we saw each other every day: updates on this guy, that guy, the changes to the hill, families, politics, our motivations for running, etc.
Ken’s recent post came up. I have not responded to that one yet. We kicked around some of the same stuff. I guess it comes down this: Running is something I enjoy a great deal. Part of that enjoyment is clearly about the pursuit of being greater than what I am or what I was. I don't go out everyday just to run to enjoy it. And so when I perform in races at something that is less than what I expect, it bugs me. This blog is part of the recycling of that “bugging.” As much as I say I want to improve, I choose to do other things as well that are big and important: work, attempt to be a functional father and husband. There are a lot of other small choices I could make to move me forward in terms of running: cutting miles, increasing miles, getting to the gym, specific speedwork, diet, etc. But I am really not that disciplined at getting at that. So any frustration that comes across in this blog is really not that big but is sort of big. I get it. I am not going to be content to say, “hey, that is the way it is” but I will look to improve, but recognize that I am coming up short on many choices.
There is a fun aspect there to me. It is easy for us to look at other people and say, “hey, you just need to do this and this and you will be this much better.” And it is probably true, but it is probably not what the person wants. At least in that moment. And their ability to see that to some other moment is that basic delay gratification problem we all face to some degree. It is fun to me to want to be as good a runner as I can be on the track, roads, trails and mountains while realizing I am a corporate weenie, middle aged family guy. Working through it is part of the fun. Sure there is frustration at times with that but … hell, I am still doing it so there is something right about it.
Snow and ice in patches up high, so I brought microspikes. Better bet would have been screw shoes. 6.2 miles.