I am also not a huge fan of “the year in review” or “New Year plans” posts but I understand why they are done (simply because now we are getting more hours of light daily), and I have certainly been kicking around such thoughts in this regard for the last 12 months.
This year has been different for me. On the running front that is quantified with the lowest miles on a year in probably a decade plus (I will come in around 2800 high), the most days off (67 as of today) that came with injuries, vacations and other typically dealt off days, and no real “A” races like a Pikes or Leadville. I had a major job change with a leaving of the corporate world and starting of my own business. I got involved with assisting the coaching staff of the distance squad at the local high school.
Some of this is good, in fact even great. But on the running performance front, I have seen the results shift to be slower … or as I like to sometimes joke – the watch runs faster now. It ain’t too hard to figure out why this has happened, but nonetheless, I will jot some of that here as a record …
The thickening: a more appropriate way to put this is I have gained weight. I don’t have a pot belly though but I can see the subtle thicker arms, more rounded shoulders, and a few less ribs and veins showing through. Most folks in our society would describe me as skinny but I can see a slow increase of mass that has come about with a slower metabolism, a few less miles … keep the same aerobic fitness and try to move a greater mass and you are likely to go slower.
The thinning: while I see a thickening in some areas, I can at the same time see a loss of muscle mass in other areas – namely my quads. I do nothing to regularly work my legs other than run and it shows as my gams get more and more old man looking.
The lack of a goal: with no goal race picked to keep me honest and on a training plan, I have not had a training plan. When I have no training plan, while I will look to get out regularly because of the habit of it and the head space health I gain from it, I am not regularly getting to a key workout each week. When I was looking to get on Pikes I was at Green a lot, or when I was looking to get after a 10k I was doing road or track work regularly. I still do that stuff, but it is ad-hoc and not regular.
There was of course the burro thing, but that is different even though there is some cross over.
Paying attention to other things: I remember hearing that it is was really tough to be a good coach and a good runner. I have a new appreciation for that. When focused on the results of other people, even if you are running with them to some degree, or hanging out at the track, it does not necessarily mean you are doing what you need to do improve your performance. There is clearly a benefit of course to being involved in the success of other people’s athletic endeavors, but for me, with limited hours in the day, personal improvement on the running performance front, is not one of them.
There were other things I paid attention to in this area … like getting a new business going (which has been a big learning exercise to me, I have called it my own MBA program), hanging out in Canada in a canoe for 2 weeks, etc.
Oh yeah, this aging thing: yeah, 47 ain’t 35. The degradation in those 12 years is way more than the 12 before it. At least the degradation of the body … the brain often thinks things are just fine and so I ended up doing stupid stunts like jumping on the track for a mile in spikes even though I had not worn spikes at all leading up that. That ended up messing my calf up for a while. And then my right hip wanted to fall out later in the year. Injuries happen, but I was not dealing with these like this in my fourth decade of life like I am in my fifth (or at least in this last year).
2015 leftovers: I’d say that I was still reeling in a good part of 2016 from Leadville – and I do actually believe that – but I won’t really say that because all the ultra community that does a bunch of these hundreds every year will just mock me for that (appropriately so too). I do think I was on a bit of a cascade effect there though in the first half of the year of trying to come back a bit too soon, mixed in with all the other items above.
Add this stuff up and you get a 47 year old guy that is sort of fit but not really reaching his athletic potential. Each off the above have a pretty simple opposite that I could leverage to address (well except maybe the aging). I sort of know better to say I will make those happen because my hit rate on that is probably 1 in 5.
I really don’t see this step back in performance as all bad. It just is. Maybe there is even some good in it if you think that a down year is necessary to relight the fire. I am not sure I believe that either but I recognize that the choices I have made have got me here and I am pretty good with all of it. That itself might actually indicate that the fire is not ready to be relit. I have wondered if that thought is an outcome of age due to nature (biology) or due to nurture (been there and done that).
I have also seen that edge of wanting to succumb and give up on it because I am not what I was. I have seen guys go through this over the years: once a big fish in the small pond, once they started to lose that edge, they got out of the water and just stopped competing. And then they often stopped running. I can understand how that can come about when the 400s that you do in a workout are what you used to hold for 10k … maybe that frame of mind will come around for me someday but I am still willing to chase some stuff, pin on the bib and get thrashed a bit.
I am pretty sure that 2017 won’t hold a true ultra race for me (like a 100) as I am just not willing to prepare, recover and hope for good execution on that day but I will figure out some not to amazing goals for it soon.